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I’m like falling asleep at my desk, when I came across this news clipping… There’s a debate going around in Germany, about a baby bear call Knut… Apparently his mum rejected him and his brother; and last week his brother died.. So the zoo intervened and saved Knut, raised him.. Some stupid animal rights activist said that saving the bear and raising him up by humans are inhumane, and the zoo should kill it..

I swear if you see his picture, he is just too cute and cuddly..I so want to have a polar bear after this… imagine that in the singapore climate.. It’s so sad that his mum rejected him… Anyways, I’m bit disturbed by the contoversy surrounding this humongously cute bear.. How could anyone wanna kill it…  This is just beyond me.. They were debating that the zoo should just let him be, and if he were to die.. well that’s nature..

Nature is just so powerful and scary.. The concept of survival of the fittest rings true in nature. In human world, it sort of have some truth in it.. I was thinking right, if I was to be an animal.. I would have so died along time ago, unless I’m in captivity.. even then I might be too stressed out to last for 24 plus years…

Imagine an asthmatic bear… very spoilt lil bear.. hehehe.. the weather itself would kill me.. shucks.. I’ll even be allergic to my own fur.. hehehe.. Can u just imagine that.. a scrawny lil thing.. I’ll be pampered and picky.. plus I’ll be a starving bear since I don’t eat fish.. hehehe

If you were an animal, would you survive in the wild.. just imagine, based on your health and your personality right now…

Yesterday was an interesting day.. Had to evacuate office due to the immense swaying of building.. It was unexpected, slightly scary and gave me the feeling that anything can happen, that I really have no control over life… Like what the security guard said as we evacuated.. "It’s all fated and only heaven knows" (now it sounds like a song as I type it out).. But it turned out well and safe to go back to work.. darn.. hehehe

Ok then riding the bus today, I heard on the news that Garuda just crashed.. I’m like thinking INdonesia is really experiencing some sort of a curse, or God’s wrath.. IT’s disasters after disasters; both natural and human… Scary to think about it.. I really wish the best to those in INdonesia.. REally do… and just hope that it all ends well for all of them.. there’s so many theories as to why Indonesia is undergoing such events.. but I guess we never know..

On top of the evacuation I did, last night I had super fun… Me and a bunch of friends of LP 62 decided to do something weird.. more like outrageous.. dress in bikinis, swim wear n beach wear, we went and took pictures at a fountain… wll upload the pics later to show u.. it was just funny.. I was embarrassed but had so much fun doing it…

Then later I went home to a beautiful goat cheese salad n yummy sirloin steak.. my man cooked.. twice since sunday.. cool… love him more for it…

before I get back to my huge, unkempt desk.. biggest lesson I learn this morning, as one gets deeper into a relationship, one can get deprived.. what was a priority is no longer.. and in bed, if you want it, you have to work hard for it.. LOVE doesnt come easy… no idae what i’m talking about.. good.. i’m just ranting away cos the deprived is back.. hehehe.. babe hope u understand my hint.. kisses to all…

This weekend was a great one… Tiring but great.. We had a family housewarming thing and also I did some brilliant charity work…

On Saturday, me n Joeri decided to have a housewarming for our family, cos his mum was here and invite his best friends… It started out quite bad cos we were in a rush to get all the shopping done… I had a morning meeting, so he was left to shop… Then he couldn’t find a bbq pit… hehehe… when all was good, it started raining… Rain n BBQ doesn’t go with each other… So funny… But my man just carried on fixing the house and putting together the pit.. Me n his mum just dealt with the food.. It was fun..

Thank god people came late cos we were way behind on our preparations.. We were still in the midst of preparing the food, when the 1st guests arrived… the triplets of cos.. People all started strolling in n the rain finally stopped.. The house was rowdy, kids running all over the place… and loads of food… By the end of the night, all of us agreed that it has been a successful housewarming party… It was great and I am so happy about the house… It’s ours… finally…

On Sunday, I went to an Old Folks home with a bunch of friends.. We’ve organised a day, it’s like a carnival… Well I had fun with the elderly… I was so nervous about it actually.. I just don’t think I can click with an elderly… But it ended up that all my fears are such silly assumptions… I think the old people touched my heart n created a more memorable day for me, then us for them.. They are such sweethearts, truly like lil kids… I sat with a bunch of old men.. It was brilliant, not the most talkative bunch.. but a smile can go so far… I had a senile man sitting at the table.. he kept telling me that he was from Malacca n tht Malacca is a big country… n that he wants to go home.. He is uncle Ibrahim.. I made friends with uncle Muksin, Hussein, uncle Ratnam, uncle Mark.. and so many others.. They are so sweet n gosh they reminded me of my grandpa.. I cried like more than 5 times when I was with them… I wonder how people can just abandon their parents at a home… it’s so heartbreaking.. They taught me a great lesson…

okay.. gonna sleep now… gotta work tomorrow… hugsies…

So HAPPY NEW YEAR to all the beautiful people out there! This holiday has been a ball of fuzziness for me, a bloody emotional rollercoaster. How exciting; at least I know I’m alive and things are not mundane.

Work has been great, love has been good and well being away from your bf for quite awhile can actually have an absolutely wonderful experience. winks*** Wonder how everyone celebrated their Valentine’s Day; I know it’s an old story cos it was almost a week ago. But I don’t care and I wanna share bout that.

I had an amazing night, I received flowers, chocolate (from ITaly) and champagne…… but none were for my bf…. hehehe… Well my man was not in town, away cos his uncle passed away; so I definitely had no angst about it. I don’t really care much about Valentine’s day except for the fact that I can laugh at all the other lame couples. However when I received flowers and chocolates form a friend, I was thrilled. And I was secretly hoping that my man will surprise me. FAT HOPE! For the first half of the day, I secretly thought that I might receive a bouquet of flowers or smtg delivered to me. I was like well he would find out my office address via the internet, and order flowers via the internet. HAH!!!!!!!! I was obviously deluded…

Well anyways despite my own disappointment, I had fun. Had drinks and dinner with my aunts, whose husbands were also away. We decided to go clubbing for abit… well we ended up meeting a friend and he bought us champagne and shots… an array of shots… that was when the night really started becoming memorable…. I had several compliments from men that I look really beautiful and I dance very nicely… I basked in it despite knowing the fact that they actually just want to get into my panties!!!! The night was great.. lots of dancing, drinking, plenty of eye candy… and driving home seriously happy form the alcohol… Tonight was as equally good as the Valentine’s day I spent in Brunei… remember dingz???

I’m seriously excited… tomorrow CSI the latest season will be on air!!!!!!! IT’s a 2 hour special… how cool… cnt stop smiling thinking about it!!!! Plus joeri’s mum gonna make croquettes for me to0morrow… YUMMY!!!!! note to self, must msg atika & remind her bt CSI!!!!

nights… slaap lekker (is this how it is spelled? hmmm )

Okay haven’t been on the blog lately cos of the holidays, then busy with job hunting… which I am still at it though I had a great job offer… but the pay sucks… so that was a no… plus on top of it all I was busy “staffing” aka being involved and helping out at Asiaworks. That was fun… bigger news is I am still helping out by being sort of a coach… If you are going huh about this, well you would only get my excitement if you do attend the trainings at AW…

Anyways, I have a bit of time tonight, plus I don’t wanna sleep just yet and there was nothing really on tv… so here I am blogging…

oooooo… last night I was walking through the dim lane of Arab Street when I saw this guy from the corner of my eye, and u would never guess who it was…. I seriously thought I was mistaken… but we both locked eyes and I knew I had the right person… I met JONATHAN in Singapore… Jon…. Jon who is suppose to be in Brunei… I was like a crazy woman… screaming, jumping, hugging….. ahhhh…

My god, I miss him and all the buggers in Brunei…. the good ol’ days…. hmmm… u know i miss the hanging out.. and the bitching… and just chilling… I never can really sit down like that long anymore… hmmmm… ok bullshit, I still can especially if I am intoxicated…

Anyways, I’ve just moved into a new place with Joeri… It’s an incredibly nice place…. I like the windows and the balconies…. plus we are so closed to the shops… It’s cool… But for some reason, I’m hesitant to fall in love with it… I realise somewhere inside me, I still haven’t grip at the whole concept… I somehow feel as though I’m not gonna be there long… No idea why.. I think it’s because I’m keeping up with the changes… I hate changes; but in recent months, I’ve been coping well… and seriously making big changes in life… risking and all…. scary stuff man….

A friend told me today, that I’ve changed… She said there’s just something about me… She said I’ve grown up and is different: in a good way she added…. thinking bout it… I have changed and in a way, I’ve really grown up…. The ways I deal with the drama in my life is definitely different from what it used to be… Hey sadly though not everything changed… I am still who I am… according to my selenge bf ’stompi’ or ‘baby’ but definitely wiser (to me anyways… I know one person who would actually refute it… but hey that’s just one opinion…)

I’m getting sleepy now… so nights… winks and smiles….

The past few weeks have been such a weird and crazy one. Crazy… filled with moments as well as people who are plain bonkers and just weird.

I am no longer working for someone deranged cos she couldn’t take feedback.. plus for the first time in my life, I’m toying with the idea of doing smething on my own… I used to be miss not ambitious… constantly lost and the only thing I know I wanted to be was Paris Hilton… up till last week..

I’ve been toying with soe ideas… and I’m gonna make it happen… Gotta go.. will dish more…

To all the deranged people especially the lead psycho woman, I really hope that one day you realised how CRAZYYYYYYY you actually are….

peace out!

I had a weird dream last night… I was sailing… there was lots of water and my bf left me… my heart was in pain… and I woke up from that pain… checked and he was still sleeping quietly beside me… relief but yet i’m asking myself is it a sign… who knows.. all i know is today is Friday and me and my man is gonna bring our relationship to the next level tonight..

Scary, yet excited… Nerve wrecking but yet i’m smiling thinking of the greatness of it all….

hmmm… last night i was approached by someone to go for casting.. it’s going to be a Malay apprentice thing.. it’ll even be shown on Astro… Still debating on whether i should try it out… any thoughts? The prize is great though… and here’s an opportunity to do my own thing.. I know i wanna be a wedding and party planner.. it’ll be great if I can have that.. just my own thing… hmmm… and it’ll be brilliant if i get the money and can do it… hmmm… I never thought i wanna own a business due to fear and also laziness… But i think i found my passion and calling..

Yay it’s friday… enjoy the weekend peeps..

luvs

As life passes me by, I realised that I’ve met and known so many people and at times, never really had a chance to thank them on the roles that they have played and are still playing in my life…. Below are the people that I love, miss, hate and couldn’t live without…

1. My family, especially my sister and brother… I can never live without you guys… Miss all the time when you are not around and really believe that we don’t see much of each other… To my mum, who feels that she’s misunderstood in the family, so sorry if I’ve been hurtful or rude… But I really do love you… despite my reactions to certain things you say…. Pa, you know I wish that all men are like you… Not many men can live up to your mark..

2. The man that I love and wanna kill at times, my beloved boyfriend… It’s wonderful to wake up to your smelly armpit and that peaceful face… You might be so irritating, eps when you are smashed..but there’s just something about u and about us…

3. To the witch I came across this morning… Watch out cos I might just scratch your car… hehehe

4. To the Catz… all the adventures and times that you’ve guys been there… the drunken moments, the teary ones… thank you for including me in your lil secrets and lives…And welcoming me in your family… Miss you like crazy, esp when thinking back of the crazy, pukey times we had… God that was fun…

5. To Yuli… babe no one has the patience with me like you do… and I’ve always loved you for allowing me to smoke in your car… That was fantastic… and just your presence and quirkiness was always entertainment to me when I’m bored… I miss our drives around the city, as well as the constant munchies…

6. To that soldierboy… hmmm where do I start… You’ve made me realised so many things… and everything happens for a reason…. I wish you well in life and love… Hope you don’t live to regret any decisions.. Don’t think too much and just be spontaneous please

7. hmmm… tuk, who I dreamt of last night… I miss you dearly… love you lots… sorry that I wasn’t able to keep all my promises..

8. To my grandma who makes a killer curry chicken, thank you for understanding me and my antics… and thanks for loving my man…

9. Nanih…. god you are one funny lady… You can always cheer me up and yet you can be profound at the same time… hugs

People are just amazing creatures… I recently came across a bunch of people who just amazes me. Sadly, it’s in a bad way… I was doing an IPO roadshow, or as Gary says, it’s Floating or something like that roadshow…, anyways, at these event, there was number of unwanted guests there… There were at least 10 people who were not on the list… However, demanded to be on it…

It’s a financial event, with analysts and pompous financial people… while those that demanded to go in, don’t even work in the financial sector… They were casually dressed; some even in slippers… They insisted that they are potential investors, and are interested in investing… What a load of crap… Some even make a scene, wanting to go in…

Such a spectacle I tell you… For a moment, watching these people crash the event, only for free food… I suddenly wanted to do a study on them… Maybe one day I will… So interesting..

They make their own namecards, and go roaming around the city, looking for an IPO launch… All they do all day is try to get in these events… Eat the food and walk away with the door gifts… I even saw an old woman, a grandma doing such a thing…

I wonder why they do such things… They just walk around looking for IPOs to crash… If one person hears something, they will call their friends of the same "kind" to come over… Seriously, it’s like a club… It would just make sucha good research paper or a documentary…

God I miss anthro and university… okay enough of my rantings… will leave it for another day…

me!

It’s been such a stressful time I’ve been having these past few weeks, two to be exact. I’ve been non-chalant, angry, frustrated, murderous and sooooooo upset… Especially at work but things are now looking up at work… well for today anyways…

Life has been so dramatic… god Joeri is right, I am such a DRAMA QUEEN…I cried yesterday… It was mostly cos of the stress at work, and on top of it, he was leaving for Bangkok and I have no one to talk to and hug… and it was just my hormones…. blurgghhh….

This morning I literally jumped out of bed and ran to the receiver as I heard Joeri’s friend ring the lift bell… God… I let him up but I was scampering around the house as I was unkempt, with morning breathe and actually I was improperly clothed… Just wearing Joeri’s shirt… In the dark I managed to rummage through my cupboard fr jogging pants… but I didnt have the time to brush my teeth… so there I was with sleepy eyes, icky breathe, and also breatheless… smiling excitedly (fake of cos) when I opened the door…. hmmmm Joeri sd he is cute… well i guess he is but i wasnt wearing my lenses or glasses… soo cnt be too sure… it’s funny… He probably has seen joeri’s exes, and then he sees me, the current mrs, just woke up… didnt have time to brush her teeth… with absolutely no make up… I bet he thought the others were better… sheesh… hmmm… It was shocking how friendly I was… I was sooo not grumpy, even thou I woke up about 1 and half hour earlier than my usual time… I even showed him around the house….

Dings, congrats on being on rtb for the Singapore & brunei show… My mum was so excited bt seeing u being on it… sheesh… she kept repaeting it endlessly… Ok enough of my  rantings… back to work…

Oh yeah… IT"S FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYY! wheeeee…….  hugs maties…

Lina